Inner peace



Happy I was  from the start 

Until I was disturbed and shaken 

I shifted my grounds to shy away 

Wanted to give up, but I held back and forged on 

Almost lost on the way , Searching deeply for :

Something to cling to , to hide from everyone 

Someone to hold me and tell me it was all going to be alright 

Wide arms to run into to tell me I was secured  

An unbroken heart to heal mine . 

But I was disappointed, having searched in all the wrong places 

With that realization, I searched deeper, farther, and higher 

 About to give up to fate of normalcy when alas! 

Something new happened , something different surged 

It was different from what I expected , from the natural occurrence 

It was a pure light from within

This inner peace I felt , that made me :

Strong even when everyone expected me to be weak 

Happy when everyone expected otherwise 

Joyful even when I feared otherwise 

A new found peace no one could take way even in my heaviest moment 

Given by the one true Father 

An inner peace not of this world

For which I am eternally grateful . 

The disappointment turned out to be a learning experience 

One i could never have gotten if I thought  I was strong enough 

Everyone thought they knew my whole story, but they are wrong 

They know only the first page of a whole book.