Happy I was from the start
Until I was disturbed and shaken
I shifted my grounds to shy away
Wanted to give up, but I held back and forged on
Almost lost on the way , Searching deeply for :
Something to cling to , to hide from everyone
Someone to hold me and tell me it was all going to be alright
Wide arms to run into to tell me I was secured
An unbroken heart to heal mine .
But I was disappointed, having searched in all the wrong places
With that realization, I searched deeper, farther, and higher
About to give up to fate of normalcy when alas!
Something new happened , something different surged
It was different from what I expected , from the natural occurrence
It was a pure light from within
This inner peace I felt , that made me :
Strong even when everyone expected me to be weak
Happy when everyone expected otherwise
Joyful even when I feared otherwise
A new found peace no one could take way even in my heaviest moment
Given by the one true Father
An inner peace not of this world
For which I am eternally grateful .
The disappointment turned out to be a learning experience
One i could never have gotten if I thought I was strong enough
Everyone thought they knew my whole story, but they are wrong
They know only the first page of a whole book.